THAT ONE PERSON!!!

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What happens when you start respecting yourself more than anything and everything of this world? A human being is full of ego even when he does not deserve a single right to have this big of an ego but he has. And the accumulation of this ego happens when you start respecting yourself a lot. This respect that comes for us is because of the life that we currently live. It is always a dream for anyone to be admitted at No.1 college of your city, to be the star performer of your organization, to have best looking person as your partner etc. And when a person finds himself either living this shit or almost near to this, he starts idolizing himself and does not find anyone even close to him. He is a legend in himself. He walks in style. He talks in style. He sleeps in style. He combs in style. He even wants to die in style because he believes he is a legendary stuff.

It becomes very scary when we reach such spot in our life where we become an admiring person in our own vision. This is the time when we should fuck up with our situation. There is always THAT ONE PERSON who can kill all the ego, respect and confidence that we have accommodated so safely in our personality. That one person can bring you back to your original aukaat and pull you so down that you can realize how vulnerable and risky your life and its successes are. If there is something today that makes you feel big, there is someone who can show you anytime in life how small and stupid you are. If you can stand in a conference room among the most inspiring and smart working team members and put a point that no one had thought about and feel yourself smarter, then this person can make you feel the weakest and dumbest person existing on this planet.

If this one had been a motivational post, my obvious suggestion would have been to ignore such person. But because this is a bloody emotional post, I declare that we should meet this one person and get screwed up and pulled down in life. This one person will never acknowledge your love, affection, emotions towards them. When you become enough stronger in yourself to never go back to this person to prove your feelings again, this person will come back to you. Rather than promising yourself thousands of times in all these days, months, years that you will never go back begging to this person ever to consider your emotions, as soon as you find them near yourself, you end up being a beggar again asking for acceptance. This time you are sure that you will be accepted as it is the person who has come up to you and not you. Also this time you are not that wrong decision-making failure young confused mind but a matured person altogether- personally and professionally. But what happens again takes away all the respect you have for yourself.

This person again rejects you asking to stay in your confines. It ends there. They warn you to not contact them again. Now you want to tell them that you are not that sucking teenager who wants that emo thing happening every morning and evening but you are that smart guy who is referred as the most sorted person among his friend circle and colleagues. But what’s the use when you have already shown this person how vulnerable you are. You have ended in that particular moment itself. And this part of being a human is worst that we want to go back time and again to THAT ONE PERSON to tell them about our current stature and again beg them to accept our emotions and feelings. But do we have any other option if not doing this? Our life will still stay unaccomplished even if we do not beg. It is anyway unaccomplished after begging.

But we still want to try THAT LAST TIME in hope of owning that person. We forget that money, stature and your respect in society can still not buy everything for you. Even after having everything of this world, you will still fall down because of THAT ONE PERSON. You can never avoid them. So it’s better to get yourself snubbed, humiliated and insulted by this person and get back to your old days when you were nothing but a lost soul without any ego, attitude and self-respect. Become that periodically to ensure that you do not lose the real person inside you which was the truest version of itself who never shied away from telling someone about their feeling and getting ignored and avoided for rest of their lives for this small disclosure. So in case you believe that you have come quite ahead in your life, go back to THAT ONE PERSON and start your journey again from the start. Let’s run a human race rather than trying to become God. There’s a daily revelation in being human than being GOD. Thanks to THAT ONE PERSON for reminding me who I am once again after years.

ABHILASH RUHELA!!!