Ye Kaisi Bheed Hai Bas Yahaan "Tanhaiyaan" Miley !!!

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       Once I was having a quality conversation with my mother. I was asking her various questions related to how she has been so charming till the age of "whatever she is". :-) I was also asking certain questions to make it obvious for me to succeed in those problems when I shall face them again in life. It is not always that I and my mother have lengthy conversations as I enter home at 7 PM in the evening- the time when her daily soaps begin and my Internet's so-called pending works begin. And, she ends up seeing all the craps and I end up tweeting and blogging all the craps. :-) The only difference is that she intakes all those indigestible stuffs while I produce them for others. :-) So, I win a point more than her in the task that we perform between 7 PM to 12 AM. :-) So, I asked her,"Mummy, aapko kya lagta hai ki mere andar subse bada Drawback kya hai?" And without even taking a second, she understood my delivery as sooner as Gayle understands the notion of the bowler. And there goes a SIX- "Veeru, tu apne doston ki, apne rishtedaaron ki, ya kisi k saath bhi kisi bhi tarah ke rishtey ki kadarr nahi karta jaisi ek insaan ko karni chahiye". 

            As soon as she ended, and after few minutes, the quality conversation ended, I started recalling all what she said and the amount of truth and reality it had. I ended up giving a virtual salute to my mom for judging me appropriately. Actually, I don't intentionally devalue relationships but the problem is- I don't know how to handle relationships. I have a certain kind of Time management disorder when it comes to valuing people in life. I can;t control them even when I give my life to possess relationships and even when the amount of security they bring into my life. Every relation is wonderful and gives you an eternal feeling of having someone with you of this kind in the specific problems that may arise in your life anytime. There are some friends those you want to be with when you have personal problems with parents, then you want some when you are trapped under professional problems, while some are needed when you are going through a boring period and you need some laugh and some are needed just because when they are with you, you feel that you have the best one with you. In these categories of friends, some may be of your age group, some may be males, some females, some can even be of your father's age, some even juniors of yours and some just a neighbour whom you never considered so important before until they came into your life and made it refreshing. 

             I coin my self as a LOSER because I did let the relationships go away leaving me even when I knew that every thing was in my control. But rather than controlling everything, I kept thinking about my self and my image in front of every one that I can't do anything wrong. But, in this wrong perspective, I kept turning right things in to wrong and ended up being a LOSER who lost all the good relationships in life. Initially, with some of my childhood friends, then school friends, then my telephonic girlfriend, then my cousin, then my girlfriend and then ufff.. so many of them have went away. That's another thing that none of the elimination of relationships has ever stopped me or my progress. I have always recovered within 3-4 weeks and performed every thing with the same quest and confidence as I did it before. But the only thing that haunts me every time I step up a ladder is, that if they would have been with me, it would have been more fun by celebrating it with them. 

            I am still bad in maintaining relationships. I, first consider myself while it is said that in relationship, you have to consider the person first and then yourself if it becomes mandatory. I don't know when will I learn the art of maintaining relationships and stop losing important people from my life. I need no person to be in my list of enemies, or with whom I had misunderstanding, or no communication because of some awkwardness between the two or any reason that makes the person go away from me; but life has not been quite kind to me when it comes to this direction of success. I am not a successful person here, I am a Big Bigger Biggest Loser. Whatever friends I have today around me is because of the sense of humour I possess. I don't think any one of them are near me because I am the person who cares for relationship more than my priorities. That is the biggest drawback in me as a person, and I don't find my self enough matured to eliminate this bug from within me, but I will try to do something with it after turning little more mature and stable. At least, I know that this is the biggest drawback I have in me, so this itself gives a confirmation that I will debug it soon. :-)

            To all the people/friends reading this, I would like to request you all to be gutsy when it comes to controlling and accepting relationships rather than letting it leave you and go. Celebrating with EACH and Every ONE is a different fun than eliminating some of them out of the celebration party just because you don't find that relationship more closer or effective in your life. Try to value each and every relationship and give it its stipulated time. Once the arguments begin, sarcasms come in between, misunderstandings creep in and relationships goes away, you are left with your self and your sucking attitude which keeps absorbing you slowly and you don't even come to know about the pain that multiplies within you without your knowledge. Value people, value their emotions, value their perspective about you and life, value every thing of their, because its you who can maintain the relationship, not them. YES!!! Always consider yourself as the mediator between both of you rather than expecting someone else to come in between and manage all things. I have tried with every failed relationship to turn it successful again, but I ended up being a Loser for second time too. Because, my unintentional evilness towards them is still in their conscious mind. So, don't let this happen with you. I hope for betterment in my and your life. :-)

  Thanks. 

  ABHILASH RUHELA - VEERU