You Left Me Alone !!! I Can't Live Anymore !!!

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        I recently found the profile of a girl with whom I was into a relationship when I was in 11th std. At that time, I was living in the hostel in Pune and I found the girl through Orkut. Like many scraps, one scrap was posted on her scrapbook too saying that I LOVE YOU. I don't know how my luck worked here and she replied pragmatically. She asked for my mobile number and I handed it to her. I didn't had mobile so I passed the number of the boy who used to sleep below my Upper bed. She called him for 4 days incessantly but I was unavailable every time she called because my first home in Pune used to be Cyber Cafe. On the 4th day, she insisted my roommate that plz keep him in the room for tomorrow as I am seriously in love with him. On the 5th day, finally, I had a talk with her. The call lasted for 1 minute 54 seconds. That was my first opportunity to have a girl friend and the first attempt to chat with a girl on mobile. After the call, everyone in my room was dancing as no one ever expected that the boy like me can ever have a girlfriend in Pune. The girls living in metro cities are highly developed and modish. A boy from a middle-class family with limited pocket money can never afford such girls. For them, these girls are same as the Hollywood actresses on the Silver screen. You can just see them from far away and dream that you will meet the goddess one day.

             Her mother used to work in BSNL office and thus she had a land-line in her house which was free of cost. She started calling me daily and we had chats for 10 to 12 hours a day. I forgot everything - right from studying to eating. I always had her name in my mind and pleasure in my soul. I always smiled. Even when I used to walk alone, roam alone, sit alone, I used to smile thinking about her voice. One day, we decided to meet each other and decide whether we are really happy with the looks too or its just a fantasy because of the sweet voices we had. The very next day, I borrowed all the branded cloths from my Dubai-returned roommates and went to meet her. When I met her, I found her little below than the expectations I had. But she said that considering your voice, I used to think that you look like Vivek Oberoi but now facing you infront of me, I am sure that you look somewhat like Shahid. I turned around and checked whether anyone is listening to what she is saying because I and Shahid getting associated together in respect of any similarities is the matter of impossibility.

               After meeting, we decided that we will give our final decision in the evening after getting back to home. After I reached my home, the mobile rung and I picked it up. It was her bhabhi and sister from other side blaming me for everything happened with their sister. I didn't understood what happened and I ignored it. Finally, I lost her and I understood that our relationship has been called off. I was sick for 2 to 3 days because of the incident and then I came back to the normal life. This is what I want to point out from the whole story. In 2 to 3 days, I came back to my life of normalcy rather than falling prey to depression and sorrow. Now-a-days, boys and girls get so attached with their partners that even when they hear the word - BREAK-UP from the controversial mouth of their partner, they start shivering and panicking. And in our own country- India, there are so many cases about youngsters committing suicide because the lover broke the promise of marrying after the affair of 5 years/6 years or whatever. Even when a boy sees that his girl friend is roaming with some other boy in the market on fellow's bike, he hangs himself to death just because his girl friend profiled herself as the pillion to the boy for some minutes.

               We have got a very big heart. We should never give any person the big part of our heart because when the part is vacationed, your heart flows get affected and you can't bear the loneliness of loneliness (LOL). You should always try to love or attach to a person at some extent where you can bear the losses and separations. I, once, fell prey to this and I never did this again. If, today, I see a very beautiful girl talking to me or I feel that I can impress this girl, I control myself because I know the value of my life rather than committing suicide just to waste my life, my parent's life and the lives of people who know me.

               From last 2 days, a girl from my class is crying incessantly. The reason is the same - She asked for the break up from the boy friend on a hot argument, he agreed and walked off from the garden area unwilling to bear any more attitudinal behavior from the girl. The boy is as normal as he was during relation and even before relation but the girl is crying so much that its hard to cease her tears. You give any types of lecture in any language and in any style, she just don't want to hear anything. What she knows is that my heart is broken because of this boy and why did this happened only to me. The same question asked by various teenagers to self-motivational guiders and personality experts. If her father would have been angry on her from last 4 months and would not have talked to her, she would have been fine but when this boy of 4 month relationship left her, she is crying. Isn't it a JOKE or DUMBNESS or FOOLISHNESS? 

              I hope all the boys and girls get to know that life is too big to handle and there's a very big mountain coming in your way ahead in your life where you will have to fight against many odds and cons. If you will break yourself at such incidents which has no value in your life, you will surely quit while climbing the mountain. I hope all the lovers are getting this.

             Thanks.

ABHILASH RUHELA - VEERU