Today after giving my first prelims exams, I felt like kicking myself..Why do I go to college? Better question than this..What do I do in the college? I have attended a lot of lectures..I'm not from them who bunk the lectures more often..and then too after showing so much dedication towards lectures and teachers and studies..I was unable to handle even a single question in the paper..That is the different issue that many of my classmates were genius like me but Why am I so sick? Why am I not concerned towards the studies? In 3 Idiots, Aamir Khan does well in the exam because engineering was his passion..Even BCA is my passion that is why I joined this course...But my passion isn't showing good results..When I entered the college..I studied a lot because there was a will to perform..A will to conquer BCA...but as the days passed..My dedication and approach towards the studies declined and tilted vertically..Very bad..I must say worst..I'm ashamed of myself..And now I'm happy that in aggression I didn't took admission in Engineering otherwise I would have been beaten up by the studies and the courses..I'm unable to learn the definitions..What would I have done if there were many numerical problems in physics..Chemical equations in Chemistry and Long long theorems in Maths..Thank God for giving me brain and keeping engineering far away from me..
In the first semester , I scored 65.56%..This was somewhat my target for the session..I wanted to score more than 60%..I also ranked 3rd in the class..Now this wasn't my target..It was like I was studying for myself..and I landed at this good score without any actual targets of scoring this..And this time too...I have the same target of scoring more than 60%..And If I score this and I find that every student of my class had scored more than me..I'll not feel bad even zara sa because my target isn't to compete with any crap of my class..My target is to compete with my set goals and targets..because tomorrow when I'll go for an interview( I'm not talking about Campus Interview), I'll not be asked what ranking did you held in your class..or I'll not be asked why were you behind than Vandana? Why were you unable to defeat Arya? I will be judged according to my potentials and knowledge..I'll be compared with the guys sitting out there for the interview..So I need to study in such a way that I should know how to handle computers and programs..I should know what exactly computers are..And suppose, I don't know all this but my fortune played and I'm top scorer in my class in all the 6 sems...Whre will I land to? Nowhere..Because they want knowledge and work from me and not my success..The organizations have nothing to do with my success and achievements and dreams..They just want to augment and improvize themselves..
I'm never tensed when I see someone in my class studying and performing well..I never take pressures..I take pressures from my left portions and the days remaining for the exam..I love myself more than anyone else..So I take care of mine rather than taking care and comparing myself with other students of my class..I believe that if a child is scoring 1st rank and is not interactive in the class..He is quiet , shy and speak less..and then there is another child who scored 10th rank in the class but is interactive, helpful , interesting, knowledgeable and lovable by everyone-even by teachers..then the child scoring 10th rank is better than the one scoring 1st...So be like this..Behave like when you are absent everyone miss you..Your classmates and even your teachers..Be the environment changer of your classroom rather than the rank-builder of your classroom..So I'm happy with my low rank in the future...The day I had my presentation..My primary and 1st target was to make students savvy of the topic Im presenting and explaining them and then my secondary target was to score best marks..Ultimately , I received 10 on 10 but if even a single student will say that I didn't understood your topic even after your presentation, I'll feel myself as a loser and good-for-nothing..This is my attitude towards working and studying..Yours may differ ...but then this is ARB..So everything is about me and my views...
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ABHILASH RUHELA - VEERU
6 CoMMenTs !!! - U CaN aLSo CoMMenT !!!:
You never cease you amaze me.
I underestimated you. You do have the necessary aptitude to be one of the best in this field. You have the right frame of mind. You should you get bogged down my such insignificant little things. I see in you a burning passion to be the best. Be it literature, IT, or even the finer things in life. I am amused by this childish behaviour of yours. It doesn't matter if others don't understand you at first. They'll get it if you explain it again. A small mistake is not the end of the world. Or atleast the end Of Abhilash! You'll perform better. I know it.
Wilshire..thanks for trusting so much on me...And man..Yaa watever u have said abt me in this comment section is right...I do have burning passion in me...but Im still not sure about will I be successful in the future or not but I do know that Ill fulfill all my dreams because thats wat for Im living else I have no other target on this earth to achieve...My only target in my life is to attain what I can imagine in my eyes for me to have or be...Just want a support from the friends like u..and Im happy to see that I have it with me..
hey veeru...great work bro. i m so astonished by your work..keep boosting up ur passion and your thoughts, it will take u long way....and do remember, dont let these achivements hack your brain. All the very best and keep growing......
Hey SIs....How r u and great to see ur comment at my blogs..Im happy that even u started reading my blogs...And I would lyk u 2 follow it as I do a lot of efforts to publish each and every blog...Im planning to write a novel and publish it..By the way this is just a dream..But thanks for noticing my blog and reading it..and then the biggest thanks is for giving ur feedback...and yaa Ill surely keep augmenting my passion and will make it something valuable on this earth...and No didi....Achievements will never hach my brain...bcoz I dont have a brain..Hahaha..Jokes apart but thanks for saying so much...And the most what I loved in your comment is the word VEERU with wich u have called me..that even after so many yrs u remember my pet name...and every person who loves me gives the 1st preference to this name..and u have given it..Im thankful to you...Thanks a lot..and keep reading and commenting..Ill always be excited for reading ur comments..
Once again Thou its a 2 year old blog...What can i say..like seriously i was even having d same problem till now as im in 2nd year 2nd semester which is 5th semester...I didnt no what to do as i'm kinda poor in my tutorials as readings and more..But i really love the course i took up which is Mass Communication Majoring in Filming s and broadcasting..While i was actually finding for answer i just actually look into ur blog as i have save it and Bingo!! you actually had answer for me...Thank you so much..!! 1 thing that i learnt by reading this blog is Always stay still to your dreams and passion nomatter what..And Being you is the biggest achievement in your life actually.. Thank you abhi... God Bless You Man.. :)
Ohh.. I am stunned that u r reading my old works too. It might disappoint Isha coz initially I was very bad in blogging. I am still bad but here, I was worst so resist from reading my old works . :-)
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