ABHILASH CALLING ABHILASH !!! A MUST READ !!!

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       Yesterday after watching the biggest flick from any human in this universe..THE GREAT SACHIN TENDULKAR scoring the highest run ever scored in One-Day International Cricket..i.e. 200*, I felt like theres no opportunity I'll be getting to be famous in this few hour of the day remaining..So I thought of closing my eyes and sleeping..Then the thoughts started perusing my deep and palpable history and my attitude towards life..I was in the state of tizziness..I wanted to elucidate more on myself..But unfortunately , I felt slumber and I slept...

          After sleeping , my N72 rang..First thought who can be remembering me at 3:30 AM in the night..But then thought , It would be somebody who really wants me at this moment urgently...and I'm so important that He/She found nobody but me at this time of the night...I then picked my phone and saw the text flashing - ABHILASH CALLING... I was astonished and surprised to see my name flashing..Woke up in a startled way...and panicking picked up the phone..My shivering voice said, "HELLO".. There was no response..I again said , "HELLO". This time little loudly..After 20 seconds , there was a reply, "Hello-Is it Abhilash speaking?". I said -Yes, Its me..But WHO ARE YOU? ..And he said- " I am Abhilash Ruhela" ..I just fingered my ears, put the phone on hold and washed my eyes and snoozed back the phone..I said " Why are you playing with me?" He said , "Can't you identify the VOICE? I'm sounding just like you sound, then too you have a silly doubt that I'm not Abhilash ..I mean Abhilash Ruhela." This time I was surprised to hear this and stipulating the description, I replied, " You are calling from where and what you want?". He replied , " I'm calling from your heart and I want your heart to be fearless and confident.I don't want you to struggle..I want you to be leading at every field in whatever you put your feet." This time I believed that he was none other than me because of his immaculate and speckless voice which was sounding just like me.

              I said, " Its great talking to myself. So if you are really talking from my heart.Just say what I really want at this moment? What is my real target in my life? What are my strengths? What are my weaknesses? What is my thinking-Positive or Negative?" 

             He replied, "My dear boy, even I'm happy to talk to you..First let me clarify.Im inner Abhilash..Real, True, Free, Confident, Motivated , Knowledgeable etc and you are Outer Abhilash with a fake smile, fake words, fake confident, fake reality..Nothing is real in you..And after giving you so many adjectives I don't think I should explain who I am..But then too , I'll answer all your questions." I replied,"Yes, You should." Then he started again, " At this moment of your life, You are having everything you expected to have 2 years ago. But the only pain in your heart is of some broken relationships-With your cousin sister , with your girl-friend, with some of your friends.Again you have pain that you hurted some good people of your life and because of some vacuous relatives who ruined your life with some mopious sentences." I said in disgust,"How do you know all this?" He replied," Hahaha!!! You are really a child, some minute ago I have already announced that Im Abhilash-That is you but still you are asking how do I know all this..Are you so weak in memorizing names?" I replied in anger,"Shut Up !!" He giggled and replied,"Leave it..I don't want to enrage you at this time of late night.So I should talk directly what my point is. You want to be a Writer.Its good..You want to be a Dancer.Its good. You want to own a website.Its good.You want to be famous.Its good.But you aren't owing anything of this title right now.So at this moment everything is bad for you. You are just dreaming big and doing nothing.Just judge your level.Are you standing, sitting or lying? Or you are dying? You yourself exactly don't know about yourself." I said in curiosity, " Then Please tell me What I am..And What should I try to be? " 

                He Replied, "Abhilash, Just be your Real-Self.And then judge who are the people who supports you..Who dont misapprehend your traduction of words and sentences and voice. You never smile openly, You never shout with your real voice, You never tell you real thoughts to anyone, You always hide your dreams. Am I right? " I shouted," NO..NO !! You are wrong..Absolutely Wrong. I never hide my dream..Everyone knows that I want to be a writer.Everyone means everyone.. I never hide..Let people laugh or under-estimate me..But I still vociferate that I want to be a writer" He replied," But do every know that you also want to be a dancer? NO is you answer..Why aren't you confident on this dream of yours? Why dont you go for the auditions..Why don't you shout everywhere in college before going to the auditions that you are pakka going to be selected?" I replied confusedly,"How can I? I dont know the future that will I be selected or no..How can I shout? What if I lose? Everyone will laugh at me." He replied enthusiastically,"Thats what I'm saying..While publishing blogs, you are so confident..You publish it everywhere in orkut, facebook and twitter with your title name..Why dont you do the same here while you struggle for your passion for the dance? I know you dont have any reply.Do you?" I replied," I dont shout about this passion because there is not me..Only me who dance..There are many who do it..So I have a fear to lose there" Now he replied," This is my last sentence..I'm not going to hear anything from you after this..So just listen..Before I go because already the sun is rising..You are a fearfull guy..You dont have guts..You are a writer..a Good writer..No doubt...after your blogs are hit and famous all over..and accepted by everyone..But you dont have guts to shout about your passion for dancing..Just because You cant compete..You fear when somebody else is in the competition..That is what your problem is..The day somebody will be up with his or her blog..You will start fainting..But I know you will not in the case of blog..Because you are far ahead...But when It comes to start the race with someone right from the first step..You dither up...and anyone can decipher this..So please try to compete..Have guts in you...And now Im moving as its morning..And I'll call you after 1 week...To tell the changes in you..and more facts about you..Good Morning and BYE!!! "

            As soon as I moved my tongue to say BYE , He went offline..and Mummy came with the TEA..,"Beta take the TEA..It seems like you were studying for the whole night as you are still awake." I saw my mummy in a panicking expression..and she went back to the kitchen..I went to my balcony..Saw the ROAD, saw the TRAFFIC...and was still confused about the CALL...Was it a Real one..ABHILASH CALLING ABHILASH...or it was a DREAM...Picked my cell and checked the Receiving numbers..and found the call received at 3:30 AM in the night ..The number was +919999999999. which is my number..and I'm still confused how can I receive a call from my number itself..So I have nothing to say now..Just waiting for the next call from ABHILASH..I mean INNER ABHILASH as he introduced himself..

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ABHILASH RUHELA - VEERU